Christina's- Why do I love you (song fic)

[Christina]

It was pouring cats and dogs outside and I was home. Just listening some music and crying my heart out. I still couldn't believe what happened. I though we were in love and nothing could ever break us apart, but I have come to facts I was wrong. Maybe she never didn't love me after all.'

Suddenly this specific song started to play on the radio "Why Do I Love You?" and whenever I heard this song it got me completly into tears. I will always remember that day like it happened yesterday, when truth is it's been a week now since I lost the love of my life...

Suddenly she's
Leaving
Suddenly the
Promise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh girl
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Flashback

Me and my girlfriend we had very lovely evening together, just a dinner and some dancing when she decided she wanted go to Hazelwoods for a walk and go to see sunset. Well we then headed down there hand in hand, and I was so sure my life couldn't get any better... I was so in love with her and I knew she was too.

Few minutes later we arrived and started to talk. When she suddenly stopped walking, and she just took her a hand away from me and started to talk about our future. "Christina sweetheart... What are you saying? I don't understand..." I was so confused when she just said it...


Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do


End of flashback
I got up from the floor and walked to my cabinet. The picture of us together kissing and hugging each other where still there. Everytime I tried to face facts she wasn't going to come back, and that I had to get over her. But I couldn't, I wouldn't not until I really realized she didn't want me.

Then something just snapped and I threw the picture straight into wall. Class went into peaces and I burst into tears again when my heart was breaking again and over again. I looked the picture one last time when I ripped it half.

Flashback

[Christina]

"what did you just said...? Did you just said you don't wanna get married? That you don't love me anymore? Is that what you are saying? Is that what you are meaning Christina? That all these years we are being together you have just pretend to have feelings for me?" I sobbed and I just couldn't take it in. It just couldn't be happening. I loved her, she was my everything.

- I am sorry, I am so sorry she said with trembling voice. Of course I love you, I love you more than anything and you know it. How can you even ask me that, Filan? She replied almost shouting.

"What **** is going on then, Christina? If you say you love me, then why are you calling it off? Just tell me!" I didn't mean to sound so rude or even yell at her, but I just couldn't take it anymore.

- I...I can't. I am sorry. I need to go. Goodbye Shane. Please don't hate me and I hope someday you can forgive me.

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

End of flashback

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you
Suddenly

These last few days I have tried everything for not thinking of HER, but nothing is working. I even started to drinking after that happened. Ever since then my mate Nicky tried to get me to senses and tried to convince her to give me another chance, that I should fight over her.

That was the though I always knew I will do, until I found out she changed her name and moved to Scotland. She just completly disappeared.
Then I called Nicky... "hey mate. You're ok? Don't tell me you've been crying again?" Please Nico, I don't need that crap right now. I want her back! I need her! Do you understand. I need your help man. I was so depressed but it has to work. "Okay okay, calm down mate. Everything will be alright. We will get her back. I promise you.

[Christina]

Present Day


Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Nico, I need to do go. Someone's ringing my doorbell. I'll talk to you later, and I promise you I will be fine. Ok. bye. And we finished our conversation.

When I opened the door I just couldn't believe it. She...She's here...
Just when I was about to opened up my mouth she said...

"Please don't say anything. Just let me explain. I am sorry, I shouldn't have left you. It just..." and she looked down. But what I asked back.
"I got scared. I though if we get married... what if...what if you would hurt me, or I would hurt you? Yes I knew it was silly to even think about that even when I knew what I felt for you. What I still feel for you. "

- "I might be late, but I just want you to know I am still in love with you, and you are still my guy and nobody. You might not want to take me back anymore, but just never forget how sorry I am and how much I love you. And you're always be my first true love."

Here she was telling me what I wanted to hear whole week. From the bottom of my heart I knew I couldn't just let this girl walk out again and risk for not seeing her again, to lose her for someone else for someone who she shouldn't even be with. She was almost leaving when I just grabbed her by her upper arm, pulled her to me and kissed her passionately.

"This last week I have wanted you to come back to me and hear you say those words what you just said. Now that I got you back, I swear to god I will never let you go again. Never! I love you so much, so much you can't even know it." Then we just kissed, hugged and walked back in.

Epilogue

A year later we finally got married. Sometimes I still couldn't believe it. I was married to the love of my life became my wife. Since then I knew she was the one for me. And I will be happiest man on the earth.

- Come on baby bush. One last bush baby. You can do this. I tried to give her more courage and let her I was there by her side. After few seconds our first baby daughter was born. Nurse took her and cleaned her a bit and then she gave her back to her mummy.

Well done sweetheart. You made it. You gave me biggest gift ever. A daughter to love. I love you both so much, and I will love you for rest of my life. I kissed her full on the lips and then just kept staring at our daughter, Amy.

From that moment I knew my life was full. I got everything I wanted since I was 16 years old. And I knew I will cherish these things always.

The end

[shaneslittlestar]

great hun